October 29, 2011

Do I Need A Bucket List?

Quiet a while back I wrote a little blog about my sexual bucket list...things I wanted to accomplish in my sex life before I pass over to the great wonder. For the most part, it is still something that I want to pursue in my sexual adventure, but won't feel any sense of failure if certain parts don't happen.

Yesterday, as I was talking to my husband about an interview I had in the afternoon with a commercial booking agency, we ended up on the subject of bucket lists. He was saying how proud he was of me for putting myself out there and trying new things in life...saying this shortly after I told him that I thought I was crazy for even going to see about this stuff, especially since my acting career is limited to amateur porn movies and couple of murder mystery dinner theatre gigs years ago.

We talked about a lot of the people we know personally who live their life in the passenger seat, merely watching as so much passes them by. It's something we have both long agreed to never do, both as individuals and a couple. Beyond my website - which believe or not would be something on a bucket list if I had one - there are lots of things I push myself to try. Heck, this past summer I signed up for a women's hockey league and played goalie - never having played hockey before. It was exhilarating and liberating...and scary.

I ride my own motorcycle...another thing I hear from friends about how they could never do something like that. Why?

Anyway, my husband said if anything does come out of this recent venture, and I get cast in something, then it was another "item to check off the bucket list."

And it made me think. And the more the gears turned, the more I realized I don't really have a personal bucket list. I have my sexual one, but not a life one.

There are a lot of things I would like to do in life, and places I would like to see, but I've always kind of plugged along believing that if they happen, they will happen.

My husband laughed as I explained this to him, responding with "That's because you're not in your 40s yet. Wait until you're about 45 (hubby is), then you'll find yourself jumping out of perfectly good airplanes or climbing on some camel in the Egyptian desert."

Is a bucket list something that is reserved for people who think they need to catch up on what they missed in life?

At first I was thinking "Damn..." but the more it swirls around in my head the more I believe that I don't want a "bucket list." I want a life of excitement and adventure without it having to be planned. I don't want to have to schedule events in life just to account for time I spent in the passenger seat. For that matter, move over and let me drive!

So, the more I think about it, the more I know I'm on the right track...even when you take the sex out of the equation!
Andee     xoxo

1 comment:

H said...

Your on my bucket list :)